But he that dares not grasp the thorn...

..Should never crave the rose.

And he who dares, wins. Mixing my quotations somewhat, but the sentiment is accurate.

I've been a bit quiet recently because I've been taking some time to re-centre myself, and also because everyday life has suddenly got insanely hectic and my time is getting eaten up at an alarming rate.

I'm being careful and cautious. I'm not as innocent and naive as I was, just a few short months ago - although it feels like much longer ago than that. I can't believe that less than a year ago, I didn't even know BDSM existed, really, and certainly didn't have any fet friends or go to any events, and had never played, never explored the side of me which I hadn't even acknowledged existed, and yet was such a huge part, in waiting.

I'm trying to protect my heart, and my body, and I think I'm doing quite well. I'm keeping quiet about what's new with me, at the moment, just in case I go running round screaming about how great it is, and then it all goes tits up. Again.

But I am having a lot of fun - god yes, am I having fun! I'm trying some things that are very different, and I feel very sure that what I'm doing at the moment is right for me. Very intense, very mind-blowing, but very right.

Je rêve de toi. Mon rêve était beau. Que mes baisers soient les mots d'amour que je ne te dis pas.